I had a few other ideas of blog posts to go up this week but sometimes life happens and plans change. It has only been 2 days since we had to put our sweet baby Maizy down. Today is her and her brother Blue’s 14th birthday. They are brother and sister from the same litter and my heart aches for him. They have never been apart… until now.
For the people who aren’t dog lovers, you probably will read this post and think I’m being a little dramatic. And that’s ok. Because for those reading who are doggie lovers, you understand. You understand coming home to the empty feeling in your home. You understand the sadness of filling up two dog bowls instead of 3. You know how it feels to roll over in the middle of the night, put your hand out to hug your baby and feel nothing but the pillow next to you. It’s indescribably horrible.
Dogs are, in my opinion, one of the most incredible animals God created on Earth. The unconditional love they have for you is something no other can give you. They don’t care what you look like, how much money is in your bank account, how many followers you have on Instagram.. they care about YOU. Because you chose them and because they love you. On your hardest days and on your best days. They are always there.
If you follow me on Instagram, you probably read how close I was to Maizy. (A while back I called her “pretty” and it just kind of stuck.) For me, she was that once in a lifetime dog. We just had a connection that I will cherish forever. She was ALWAYS by my side. Every night I take a bath. Before I get in, I sometimes go back and forth between my room and bathroom, putting things away, finding my towel, etc. She would always follow me. I’d say, “Maizy just lay down in the bathroom I’ll be right there!” But she’d follow me regardless. Even though she was shaky, even though she had a tumor in her paw. That’s how much she loved me. Towards the end, she’d push her little face in the door crack as you were leaving because she wanted to come, and if she couldn’t, she’d lay by the front door until you got home. It amazes me how loyal they are even until the very end.
Although my heart is broken right now, I want to point out how completely grateful I am for community. I have been blown away by the sweet words and actions of others for my family during this time. Between strangers giving their love and prayers and our vet sending a flower arrangement because they consider us and Maizy family, I know that God is near and He is so so good. It’s times like these where we must look to God, His word, and trust in it wholeheartedly.
2 Corinthians : 1-4 says, “He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.”
I have certainly felt His comfort not only from Him, but from those around me. Even in our worst moments, He hears you. He’s there, and he is working for the greater good of His purpose.
So, to my Pretty. We love you more than you’ll ever know. Mom, Dad, Sarah, Blue, Bo, and I are celebrating you today and everyday. We hope you’re chasing tennis balls up in Heaven today. Happy 14th birthday Maizy and Blue. Thank you for your perfect love.